I’ve had a hard time getting the words out.
But after thinking about it for weeks, I know I need to.
I’m taking a hiatus.
I felt like Thanksgiving weekend was the perfect time to let it out, because I could send a message at the same time. I am thankful for all of you. For reading my posts. For your comments. For your direct messages. For your likes on my Instagram. On Facebook. All of it. I am thankful that you think that my word is worth reading. Having a blog is something I’ve always wanted.
But right now, it’s not going how I’ve planned.
I returned to work just over a month ago. September 3rd to be exact. I’d been off work for about eight months, and an opportunity arose that I couldn’t resist. I mean, let’s be real, there’s only so much we can watch on Netflix.
Being back at work, my life has changed. Adjusting back into old routines has been different. Because my goals have changed. I’m not just looking to get through the day like I was at my old job. I’m loving my new job. More than I ever thought I would love a job. I feel like I’m where I need to be. And I need to focus on that for a little bit.
Every day that goes by and I don’t get a blog post out, or a photo on Instagram, I think to myself – this isn’t how I wanted it to be. I wanted to be engaging. And eager to post once a week. Eager to share everything with everyone. But I’m so preoccupied with work, and friends and family, that my blog has been sitting on the back burner for a bit.
Going into the holiday season, I want to focus on the things in front of me on a daily basis. I want to set a plan for the future of the blog, and I can’t do that if I’m juggling too much at once.
I’m not leaving forever. My goal is to be back in the New Year. It may end up being sooner, but I think getting myself through the holiday season is just what I need to do. Focus on family. On friends. And being the best damn employee I can be. Because I really do love my job that much. I go to work happy every day. And I leave happy every day. I don’t get angry. I don’t want to cry. My mental health gets better day by day. And I want to hold onto that.
This is see you soon, not goodbye. This is I’ll be back, not you’ll never see me again. My plan is to come back bigger and better than ever.
So, thank you. Thank you for loving what I’ve done so that I have something to want to come back to. You make it all worthwhile. I just need to breathe.
Love you. All of you. To the moon and back.