As one year comes to an end, it’s always a time for reflection. This is the time of year where you start seeing New Years resolutions come out (I think I read a statistic about gym membership sales skyrocketing every January) – most of them are usually around the same thing. Health, lifestyle, diet – everything in that generic box. I usually make the same sort of resolution. And I rock it for a month or so, and then I move on to something else, or reverse back out of it. This year, my resolution is to not make resolutions. This year has been one for the books, and I’m ready to reflect, and move on!
The number one thing that was a huge change in my life was moving my mom into the long term care home. By far that was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, and I feel it each and every day. I’m going to dedicate a whole post to her in the coming weeks, a reflection of the last seven or so months of her being in the home.
January of 2018 is when this blog began. I’ve almost made it a full year of blogging, and sharing my life and opinions with all of you, and I couldn’t be happier. I wanted somewhere to express myself. To share my battles, and my accomplishments. To share each and every thought that went through my head. And I feel like I’ve barely even scratched the surface, and I’m looking forward to another year with all of you. In addition to beginning the blog, I went from hosting with a [dot]wordpress[dot]com ending, to now hosting on my OWN DOMAIN! That, in itself, is just major to me.
I feel as though I hit a milestone for myself this year, as I managed to last a plane ride from Toronto to Vancouver (and back, of course). I have a huge fear of flying, but thanks to a little something from my doctor, I was able to fight it and get on the plane. The fear is still there, of course, but it’s less dominant. And I’m so glad. Because looking back on that trip to BC, I am absolutely elated that I went. Not only did I get to be reunited with a best friend I hadn’t seen in a few months, but I got to travel Vancouver Island and got to take in the most beautiful views I have ever seen. Fighting fear, for me, is a huge accomplishment in the chapters of my life.
I bit the bullet and got myself a personal trainer this year (Hey Colin!). We had a couple of sessions before my trip to BC, and I felt as though I was on a really good course. Over the last half of the year, my gym attendance has faltered, but it’s on my to do list for 2019. I’ve got my membership still, so I’m going to utilize that until I find my next job, and see what gym/location is going to be best to continue my gym adventure. I do love being at the gym, and the euphoria I feel afterward. I miss it, and I need it back in my life.
A few other mini trips existed in 2018 for me: Port Hope, Ottawa, and then NYC! Traveling has become a bigger passion of mine, and I have dream after dream of wanting to see new places. I know I’m not going to make it everywhere, but I love the feeling of dreaming and I’m definitely not going to stop.
There is one last milestone of 2018 that I feel as though deserves a mention: the departure from the job I’ve had for the last 6 and a half years. I started working at the company in the beginning of 2012. What started as a seven week internship evolved into a job – and people – I’ll never forget. Under the same department, I went from a cook, to a server, to an event supervisor, and then to a clerical temp – all in the span of 3 years. After that, I signed on to work as a contract position as the sole administrator for our department. At the end of my third yearly contract, the department opted not to renew my contract. While my contract officially expired on December 28th, I opted to take the last two weeks of the year as vacation, and finished with the company on December 14th. That job had been my life for the past six years, and I’m not quite sure yet where I’m going from here.
If looking back at the last year of my life has taught me anything, however, I know that I’m capable of anything. This year I’ve fought fears, and started new adventures, and ended the biggest chapter of my story yet. But I’m beyond excited to see what 2019 has in store for me, and I’ll hold onto my 2018 adventures near and dear to my heart. I’m ready to take those experiences, and maximize my life, and my experiences. I’m ready to continue fighting fears, and taking adventures, and chances, and really just letting it all go.
2019, I’m ready for you. Are you ready for it?