music monday

Music Monday – JP Saxe

I don’t say what’s on my mind quite as much as you’d like me to
I’ve been hearing that my whole life, I promise, it’s not just you
But I so confidently want you that when you say you’re insecure about my feelings I don’t take it serious
But if you need me to tell you more…

I had a song in mind for last week, but I got caught up in life and didn’t get around to posting the lyrics. I will, however, save that one for a rainy day – because I have stumbled upon a song that just sucked me right in.

You’re one of the few things that I’m sure of
You’re one of the few things that I know already I could build my world of
One of the few things that I’m sure of
And I want you to unravel me
Come closer, come closer
Come closer, come closer

By the looks of my Music Monday history, I’m more of a sappy, slow, love song kind of person. I promise I’m more than that. My work out playlist is very different from this. But when it comes to choosing a song for Music Monday, I pay a lot of attention to the lyrics. And The Few Things – JP Saxe has the kinds of lyrics I look for.

I don’t say what’s on my mind quite as much as you’d like me to
And often when I’m quiet you worry I’m hiding from you
And I know I keep a lot to myself
But still you’re more part of me than anybody else
So if you need me to tell you more…

I used to like to think that I wear my heart on my sleeve – but I realise now that I only do that to a certain extent. There are a lot of emotions that I’ll put out there and I won’t be afraid of. But there are some emotions, like love, that I seem to be scared of showing.  Of admitting. I think it’s because of how things were during my first serious relationship. I don’t mean to shit on him by any means – I loved him, I adored him, and I’ll forever be thankful for the relationship we had and what I learned. But at the same time it scarred me in a way I don’t know if I’ll ever recover from. He is by no means a bad person. We were both young and trying to figure out our lives. But that doesn’t mean it didn’t scar me.

You’re one of the few things that I’m sure of
You’re one of the few things that I know already I could build my world of
One of the few things that I’m sure of
And I want you to unravel me
Come closer, come closer
And I want you to unravel me
Come closer, come closer

This song brings out some feelings in me that I’ve kept hidden for so long. I think it’s just this line “You’re one of the few things that I’m sure of” because it’s so real. It’s raw. It’s telling someone you love them without telling them you love them. That’s something that I need to have the capability of doing because instead I run scared, and I keep my emotions inside. I’ll tell you when I’m angry. I’ll tell you when I’m anxious. When I’m scared. When I’m happy. When I’m sad. But I don’t know if I’ll tell you I love you.

Not right now.

I don’t say what’s on my mind quite as much as you’d like me to
I’ve been hearing that my whole life, I promise, it’s not just you
You’re one of the few things that I’m sure of
You’re one of the few things that I know already I could build my world of
One of the few things I’m sure of
And I want you to unravel me
And I want you to unravel me
(Come closer, come closer)

If you want raw, if you want love. Listen to this song. Embrace it. Feel it. Do what I’m doing. Stick your earbuds in and type out your feelings. Let them come to the surface. Spill them through your fingertips into this little white box of your screen and just let them out. Because that’s what this song makes me want to do. It makes me want to tell you. You’re one of the few things that I’m sure of.

You’re one of the few things that I’m sure of
You’re one of the few things that I know already
I could build my world of
One of the few things I’m sure of
And I want you to unravel me
Come closer, come closer
Come closer, come closer

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